I went to the hospital last night to see my dad and I have to tell you that it was a very disturbing thing to see him laying there in that bed hooked up to all those tubes. It was so hard to see him in so much pain and knowing that the Dr’s have no idea what is wrong with him made it all the more horrible.
You know it really is amazing how quick things can change. I was just there to see him on Friday and for someone that hadn’t had any food in 10 days really was looking pretty good. I can’t imagine being hooked up to feeding tubes…I love food way too much lol.
My dad has always been a very active man, a workaholic might be a better way to put it. I think maybe that had a lot to do with why it was so hard to see him like that; helpless and out of controll of what is going on with him.
I know my dad just hates to be there in the hospital right now, I’m sure he feels like he should be working or doing something other than being sick and helpless.
Maybe there is a reason that he is there in that hospital other than the fact that he is sick. Maybe he has something to share with someone and this is the only way he could reach them. Somestimes your body is just trying to tell you to slow down and when you don’t it makes you.
We all need to take care of ourselves mentally and physically. You need to slow down and learn to take life one day at a time and then enjoy it. Don’t spend all your time working, life is too short for that. Take some time every day just for you and do something you enjoy doing.
Be a lover of life and of yourself! Don’t wait till it’s too late to do the things you want to do. You deserve to live a happy and fullfilling life.
You are Awesome!
Live, Love, Laugh,
Kathy @~}~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~`
Have you ever stopped to think about how much your self esteem effects almost every aspect of your being? It really does, it effects your relationships, your job, your success, your outlook on life, your health and the list goes on and on.
A lot of these things are part of our unconsciousness, you see, we aren’t always in touch with our true selves. Sometimes we have given up the right to be ourself and we let others controll who and what we are. Well it’s time that we take back that controll and become everything that we were created to be.
We have been programmed from the time we were a baby to act and to perform and even to think in a certain way, by our parents, teachers, family members friends, maybe not nessesarily the way that God had intended for us to be yet it shaped us into who we have become.
It’s time for you to take back control of your life, your dreams and your self esteem. You need to become “YOU”! You were created for greatness, and now it’s time for you to live that greatness and follow your passion and live the life that you were destined to live.
Don’t be affraid, this is your life, your destiny, so live it the way you are passionate. You must move and take action to get what you want, never become idle, never give up.
Never lose site of the big picture, if you can believe it you can achieve it. You need to dream and dream BIG! then follow that dream until it becomes a reality. Life really is worth living.
Make everyday an adventure and remember to focus on what is important to you and follow that path. Make changes if necessary as you will need to be flexible because things are always changing, even your goals may change from time to time as you begin to see things more clearly.
Growth and change are a part of life and doesn’t mean that you are on the wrong path. When they do change, it just means that it’s time to take a new path as long as you continue to move forward. It’s the moving that is important.
You can create anything you want so why not create the life that you love and follow your dreams? You have the power within you to do just that. So what are you waiting for? Get started now! There is no greater time than the present.
You are Awesome!
Live, Laugh, Love
Kathy @~}~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I think that we need to take this time to sit with God pray….
Oh please God give us wisdom and the courage to understand the things that we are feeling in our hearts and tell us what’s your plan….
What do you have in store for us and tell us what we need to do, to live our lives in righteousness so that it pleases you….
What burdens must we carry, what sacrifices must we make ,..
To ensure our lives in Heaven and walk through those Pearly Gates…..
I know God you are merciful and you will always hear our prayers…
and you will love us all our days ’till we walk up Heavens stairs….
But please God we need your help right now as time is of the essence, Fill our hearts and our minds and let us feel your presence…..
Give us the answers that we seek so that we clearly understand,
What it is we need to do so that we fulfill your plan…..
By: Kathy Fitzwater
Kathy @~}~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Has anyone ever told you that you were beautiful? Well you are! You are a totally beautiful and awesome person, unique and different from anyone else that God has placed on this earth.
The fact that you are different from everyone else on this earth is a good thing whether you realize it or not. Just think about what it would be like if we were all the same…..might be kinda boring huh? If we were all the same and liked the same things then your choices would be very slim don’t you think?
Just imagine everyone living in houses that all looked the same, or all driving the same kind of car, wearing the same style clothes, were the same size, shape and color. That would just be crazy.
I like being different, being unique makes me feel special. Everyone needs to be who they are and not try to be like someone else. It’s not a bad thing to admire someone but don’t try to be just like them because it will never work. You have to develop your own personality and be comfortable being you, you have to love yourself.
Don’t try to look like those models in the magazine that barley have skin on their bones, who cares if you are a little over weight, if you are happy with who you are then it really shouldn’t matter. Never try to change your looks for someone else or try to be someone different than who you are for anyone. The only person you should change for is you! so if you want to make improvements to yourself then by all means do it.
Take it from me…I know I have lived it. I tried to always be what I thought everyone wanted me to be. Did you catch the words “I thought”? This was a thought that I persived in my own mind that this was the way the people around me wanted me to be. Did they ever tell me what they wanted me to be? no I don’t think so….not plain out tell me anyway. I think it was more me thinking that they couldn’t possibly like me for me….I didn’t look like a super model and I wasn’t all poised and confident in myself and that made me feel inferior to everyone around me. If someone told me I was pretty I would just look at them and say “yeah right, me?” I don’t think so. It was “my” perception of things, not neccessarly theirs…. therefore I became a martar so to speak.
I gave up my personal freedom to be what I thought would make those around me happier,“who they wanted me to be”. When you do that sometimes you just feel like you are dying inside. You can become bitter, or worse, you just feel like you want to die. You think to youself “if I were to die right now no one would miss me or even care”
I didn’t feel that I was surounded by people who cared really, I was just there, kinda in the way. I became very shy and introverted. And yes that just made things worse. You can find yourself feeling so many different emotions and that can get very confusing. You want so badly just to have someone love you….for you. But by this time you are lost and don’t know who you are or what you want.
But all hope is not lost, You can learn to love yourself and by loving yourself first others will learn to love you for you….which is what you wanted all along.
Take steps to find who you are. Take care of yourself mentally and physically, pamper yourslef from time to time, treat yourself like the special unique person that you are. You have the power to be whatever you want to be, it’s all a mindset.
Let’s stop and get ride of that marter syndrom and start living the purposeful life that you were intended to live. You were created for Greatness! Be it! Dream it and Dream BIG! Live your life to the fullest, follow your destiny.
You are Awesome!
Live, Love, Laugh,
Kathy @~}~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~